Then you have my condolences. It is... aggravating to wish for something different, something better, and know you cannot at that moment.
( his impression of mel is that she is sharp, and sees more than what her eyes do at any point in time. perhaps that is simply his mind connecting two golden women together when there exists nothing, but he wonders... would mel damn herself if it meant helping others? would she slowly lose her humanity over centuries in order to protect the world, in order to guide others forward, knowing she could never see the end of it?
mydei thinks so. )
Unless such immortality is more common elsewhere, you do not have the luxury of seeing the seeds you wish to sow come to bear fruit. But you must trust in them. In your people, in finding those you can entrust the future to no matter what choice you make, even if you fear for them.
If they hold even a sliver of similarity to yourself, they will endure it.
[ Perhaps it would disappoint him to know that she hasn’t had overly strong feelings about the people of Noxus. Rather, that Piltover has taken up her attention, as have her plans and designs to get back in her family’s graces. To be worthy of her mother’s love. And as the months have passed, when she had finally seen her mother face-to-face, once she had gotten closer to Jayce…
She realized that her home no longer existed to her. She would never be a Medarda again, not the way she was. But now Piltover, too, will be lost to her. There is nowhere for her to go home.
Should she return to Noxus? If it means her mother will leave Piltover, she would make that sacrifice. To be her weapon until she could stop her (or until she was forced to try — though she no longer has the necklace the Black Rose operative gave her). But once her mother is gone…what is the alternative? She will never be free of the Black Rose either, her mother’s debt only given to her. If she stays away from Noxus, she will be hunted; if she returns to Noxus, she will be a glorified hostage, as she was before.
There’s so much she doesn’t know. Who is she to declare that what Noxus is doing is wrong? She is no one.
And yet… ]
I haven’t been home in so long that I don’t know that I’m the right one to make these changes. But I also do not know who would want to. If there is anyone who thinks similarly to me.
[ And with hounds at her back, can she find them before trouble finds her? ]
I do not fear not seeing a new dawn rise for my homeland. I am mortal and it is inevitable. But I would need to go home first. [ There’s a pause between this text and the next. ] And I will need to stop my mother.
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( his impression of mel is that she is sharp, and sees more than what her eyes do at any point in time. perhaps that is simply his mind connecting two golden women together when there exists nothing, but he wonders... would mel damn herself if it meant helping others? would she slowly lose her humanity over centuries in order to protect the world, in order to guide others forward, knowing she could never see the end of it?
mydei thinks so. )
Unless such immortality is more common elsewhere, you do not have the luxury of seeing the seeds you wish to sow come to bear fruit. But you must trust in them. In your people, in finding those you can entrust the future to no matter what choice you make, even if you fear for them.
If they hold even a sliver of similarity to yourself, they will endure it.
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She realized that her home no longer existed to her. She would never be a Medarda again, not the way she was. But now Piltover, too, will be lost to her. There is nowhere for her to go home.
Should she return to Noxus? If it means her mother will leave Piltover, she would make that sacrifice. To be her weapon until she could stop her (or until she was forced to try — though she no longer has the necklace the Black Rose operative gave her). But once her mother is gone…what is the alternative? She will never be free of the Black Rose either, her mother’s debt only given to her. If she stays away from Noxus, she will be hunted; if she returns to Noxus, she will be a glorified hostage, as she was before.
There’s so much she doesn’t know. Who is she to declare that what Noxus is doing is wrong? She is no one.
And yet… ]
I haven’t been home in so long that I don’t know that I’m the right one to make these changes. But I also do not know who would want to. If there is anyone who thinks similarly to me.
[ And with hounds at her back, can she find them before trouble finds her? ]
I do not fear not seeing a new dawn rise for my homeland. I am mortal and it is inevitable. But I would need to go home first. [ There’s a pause between this text and the next. ] And I will need to stop my mother.
[ And likely kill her. ]