The guilt is heavy. I still believe you deserve better. One day, we won't be able to remain as we are.
Until that day arrives, however, I am here and at your side. I will not leave you. You are too important to me now, interwoven in my heart. I only ask that you take care of yourself, too. Only one of us needs to be monstrous for what will come next.
You are worth more than you believe you are. I do not know what's caused you to feel unworthy of the love Jayce has for you, or why you feel the work will always be more important than your well being, but I hope we can change this.
You deserve more. You deserve better. Even if we cannot find a cure, I hope what time you have is spent doing what makes you happiest.
Some part of me knows you are right. That what will happen to us is worse, but not so different, than what happened in Piltover. Zaun deserves a chance. I am sorry that I was part of the cruelty you were given.
That being said, this is not the place for a war. We are shackled to one another now and while I would help you, I will not do it at the cost of this world or innocents. My eyes are open, Silco, but I am not afraid of what must be done.
I know I've been foolish about all of this, about us. I'll say what I've told the others: I am a poor friend and companion, and I am not the kind sort. But you've known this all along. Your goals are mine; your enemies are mine.
You stretched your hand out first. What else can I do but meet you there at the center? Thank you for still being willing to trust me. Thank you for remaining in my life.
I shouldn't have asked you to go against your morals, even if it was for a good cause. I do not want to be like the monsters who used and hurt you so long ago. You deserve better. Next time, I'llโ
What happened to you was unconscionable. I will never forget what they did to you, what they did to the others. I know you're only doing your best and hiding behind the smile you offer to others. You don't need to do that with me. I'm strong enough to shoulder your burdens too. Isn't that the promise we made?
You are more valuable than you believe you are. Thank you for being willing to stand by my side and call me friend even when I am made of sharper things, unfit for tenderness. I won't let them hurt you again.
Why does it have to be you? You were supposed to keep me from using you. If something happens to you, then I...
It wasn't my intention to hurt you. But now you know something about me, and I about you. Take what you need, hold nothing back. I am not afraid.
I admire you greatly. Your trust, your honesty, your strength... I am a lucky person to have been able to fight at your side. I hope we have the opportunity to know more about each other.
I value your presence, both your wisdom and your candor. I think you have the right idea about this world and how we can help. And you were right to take a step back; I wish the results of the work didn't have so great a cost.
I'm glad I got to see you smile. I think you've finally found your stride.
For those who cannot fight. No matter what it takes, we have to keep going. Please know this is not solely your burden to bear.
There is more to darkness than it seems. Thank you for teaching me that. You're a strange one but it's not...bad. Simply new to me.
I will never be as powerful as you. But perhaps there is still time to right the wrongs of my home. I only hope I can be strong enough to do what must be done.
The cost of revenge is a steep one. I worry you are losing yourself and I don't know how to stop it. You aren't alone; you don't need to carry this on your own.
I'm sorry that you, too, are caught up in all that Silco is. I am learning him, little by little, so you need not bear the burden of his views alone. Still, I'm appreciative of your support, and know that I meant what I said; I'm here for whatever you may need.
You see this world the way it is and still you choose to be understanding and kind. People like you are desperately needed in this world, especially now, as the anger refuses to abate. With your help, I hope we can find a better way.
I am still jealous that your magic is so much more useful than mine.
You've a good head on your shoulders and a quick mind. Your help has been invaluable so far, and I hope we can continue to aid one another.
This world needs monsters, too. It might as well be you. It might as well be me, too.
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